I have be doing some investigating about different options for living. If you are like me you feel trapped sometimes in a place where you think "this is it" your life has come to this place and you can't imagine there are options. Our lizard brains constantly want us hiding in the same bushes day after day. Something bad could be out there ready to eat us or maybe not.
The trouble with this is we can prepare ourselves for every possible scenario except the one thing that wasn't on our list. We stay in jobs or in relationships that just don't work anymore because our brain wants things to be less complicated. Telling us that this is all there is so deal with it.
I do think even the act of just seeing what is out there is a way to feel like you are moving forward. For me I am thinking in this market where my house is worth twice as much maybe I should investigate the possibilities.
Don't get me wrong I love my house but I am not the person I was when I bought it and my life doesn't require this much space. It is beautiful and at the time it was everything I ever dreamed of and I imagined the potential it had for gathering of friends and family. I did entertain for awhile and had regular group meditations on the porch but for the last few years it has been empty.
I spend my free time working on maintaining it and I am not sure I want to keep doing this. I had a long full week at work and felt physically exhausted but worked on the house yesterday. I worked inside today getting ready to go back to work tomorrow.
My sister thinks I am nuts she loves my house but never visits. I think she would love this house if it was where she lived. When I found this house I called it a God thing because it had everything on my wish list and both a friend and my realtor called me the same day about it.
It was empty and needed somewhere to move my stuff. The life I had known had ended abruptly and I needed a place to live. The process was effortless this was all I could handle because I was in shock and could make decisions. I got a mortgage without having a job and a few short months later the stock market crashed and no one could get a mortgage.
Timing is everything and I believe that when you are in the flow with life then the right things come to you at the right time. If it is right then it all works and it feels good.
We all have options and seeing what they are can make the life we have seem something we have chosen and not a place where we are stuck. I was forced out of my old life and it changed me for the better. I needed more than what I was being offered and I have found happiness and peace that I didn't know existed.
