I am streaming the Eagle's nest on my computer two babies have hatched and one to go. Just having the sound on my computer while working and writing has calmed me the past hour.
I can't write today. Anything that comes out will be black. I won't feel like this forever, even though it seems like it, when I am in it.
The animals have small really evolved brains and can be satisfied with being unconscious and just living to reproduce. I envy their minimal thought process not worrying about the future or mistakes of the past or why they exist. The down size is a short life and being some other animal's meal. The first I could live with the second would be a little harder.
This too shall pass. The Promises--That feeling of uselessness and self-pity will disappear. God, please make it disappear.
Praying God will help you dear one during this time. Blessings.
ReplyDeleteI love watching the eagles, too. I can't listen, because I'm at work. I'm having a hard time writing today, too. Maybe this is how it is supposed to be. God grant me the serenity.
ReplyDeleteI am sorry for the blackness, my friend. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers.
ReplyDeleteCatching up on some missed posts, I felt moved to respond to your "horse" post.
The way I think of my defects of character is that they are like scabs that are covering a wound. Only my character defects are spiritual scabs. To the degree I still have them, they still serve to protect me.
If I pick at them, I will only reinjure myself. But if left alone, they will fall off on their own once the wound underneath has healed.
So I accept them, knowing that if I continue to do the things I've been taught to do in this program, God will remove them when I am ready.
Hugs to you.
Nature calms me and elevates my sad times. It has done that for me as long as I can remember.
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