Real pancakes this time.

I once again thought myself into a corner. I like the phrase my best thinking got me here and in my life I prove that over and over again.

I was listening to this guy on You-Tube that was forwarded by a friend. In my mind the ideas his ideas were not that profound but for some reason it struck me hard.

The general gist of the discussion was to stop struggling and let life take you where you are suppose to go. If you lose everything you will see that it all really means nothing. His point, we have attached importance to everything we see and feel and our thoughts of separation from this is what causes our pain. This is not a new idea of course it is about faith in the unseen. In the program it is living one day at a time.

I like his ideas because he is right we could be less obsessed with obtaining things or accomplishing things and more focused on relieving the suffering of others or creating joy in our lives. But the reality of the situation is that his lifestyle is supported by people that pay to fly him all over the world to hear what he has to say on the subject of having no desires. He only accepts expenses for his visits not actual income.

This recent bout with yet another spiritual idea has made me come to the conclusion that all paths lead to the god of my understanding. When I left work yesterday I felt like I shouldn't do anything and just let go and let life take me where it wants me to go.

So I took myself to Cracker Barrel and had pecan pancakes, eggs and sausage for dinner. It felt good to relax with plate of carbs.

I still felt disturbed by the thought of just releasing my life to the unknown. To not having goals or ideas about how I want to spend my life. On my way home I called a friend who is on a similar path as me and I discussed my dilemma.

She helped me to see that living a purposeful life can be done while we are doing what is right in front of us. It doesn't require suffering and shouldn't. A joyful person attracts and gives comfort where ever they go.

We both agreed that we are sick of talking about the path and just want to live it. It is important to share how we got here but at some point actions speak louder than words. We have agreed to meet and come up with a plan.

This recent dip back into a spiritual path other than the steps has helped me to see just how the steps make things simple for those of us that think too much. This is why I stayed after that first meeting many years ago.

Attraction not promotion and no one is more important than another, except in their own mind. No one gets paid. The anonymous part quells the ego's ability to get too far. It isn't perfect but it works for the most part.

The meeting I attended last week was very welcoming. I only knew a few people in the room and I felt perfectly comfortable after being gone for awhile. The sharing was great and made me see we all have something worthwhile to say. Life can be hard and sometimes serious but we are all in it together. One day at a time.