Not much has changed here I had a busy six days at work and spent yesterday in the yard. The front is really finished but I planted some impatiens that were suppose to be sun worthy but were suffering so I moved them yesterday to a more shady spot. I replaced them with bright pink ehinacea plants.
I am glad to have something I am excited about. This can be an issue when you get older and more peaceful. You have done a lot of things and even the things you haven't done you know that once you do them you will have to find the next thing to fill your time. Even vacations will be over as the time passes by and when you come home began each day again.
You could embellish your time away to others or to yourself just to make your normal life more bearable or you could just enjoy your life the way it is and look for the joy it offers each day. Getting away can renew your spirit but it doesn't solve day to day suffering. In my experience spending concentrated time with people you already have unspoken issues with can make you wish you were back at work.
This sounds sad but it isn't meant to be. It is just about seizing the day for what it is an not trying to get to some day in the future where things are different. We wish things were different than they are now and know that perfect day is out there somewhere.
When you are living in a crisis whether that is addiction, sickness or lack you can't wait to get past it. I get that for sure I have lived with all of those things and I suffered most when I was wanting to be someplace else. Someplace far in the future where this wasn't happening to me.
Today I am grateful that I can just in enjoy the day I have and not wish for happiness in the future. I will see where I can find joy in this ordinary day.
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