I had a dream this morning that I was in a cafeteria buffet line and a older guy had put a serving of chicken on my plate with some green beans. Suddenly he decided that he wanted me to have fish and took my plate back and gave me a piece of fish but in the process threw away my green beans. I ask for more green beans but her refused and I had to ask for a manager to get my green beans.
Dreams are so real sometimes and I wonder are we really living in a second world. I know when I dream like this that I have stayed in bed too long. The details were incredible and I remember when I got my green beans I thought this has taken me 45 minutes to get through this line.
I guess it is Thanksgiving bringing on food dreams and I do prefer fish to chicken but I do like my green beans. I am on my own this year without plans for the day but feeling okay with it. I have cooked and served hundreds of people on Thanksgiving mostly spending my time cooking and cleaning alone in the kitchen.
For many years I enjoyed the process of cooking a big meal for the people in my life that I loved. Feeling productive and making sure everyone had a meal to remember. When I was young my husband and I cooked for 20 - 30 people some of them strangers to us but without a place to go.
In my last relationship I cooked for my ex's family and my friends. It is strange to think about that now. It has been over a decade and the person that did that no longer exist. I don't feel sad today being alone. I think for the first time I don't feel lost and wanting more from my life than what is right in front of me. I am off work until Tuesday and have a few projects on my list to keep me busy.
I have found that only resisting your current situation will bring you unhappiness. We are taught to want more dream more and I agree with that but not at the expense of rejecting today. Enjoy the day and if your with friends and family try to not want them or the day to be different and enjoy those green beans.
This puts my day in perspective.
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