I have to remember I am right where I am suppose to be. Even if it feels unnatural to let go when everyone around me has an opinion about what I should be doing.
My sister gave me an ear full last night about getting my resume together and getting out of my job situation. Today we went to a lawyer to draw up the papers to get me into the situation my sister thinks I should be running from.
This afternoon I met with my retirement planner and he said I have wasted a year of my life keeping a business open that wasn't mine. I said it was necessary to get me where I am today. He said that that was just an excuse and the road blocks were just in my mind.
Meanwhile back at the bat cave the boy wonder, my cousin, was leaving me nasty messages saying he hated me and is glad the my husband Bob left me 20 years ago. He wants from his trust and I won't authorize it. Sticks and stones...
What is it they say about opinions? This is a long way from the beautiful Manatees I visited on Monday. Beautiful is a lose term when it comes to Manatees they look kind of like slugs with faces and a tail.
I am content in letting go even if no one thinks I know what I am doing. I do really.
One thing I know a lot about and that is me. I know how my mind works and the emotional process I have to go through to make decisions. I might take longer than others but when I reach a conclusion I will rise to the occasion and kick some butt.
I am floating today somewhere between trusting myself and God and the opinions of others. I feel pretty good actually and I will come out ahead, I always do.
According to the Chinese horoscope I am a Tiger and regularly wait in the brush until I am ready to ponce or sometimes I might fall asleep and miss the whole thing.
We shall see.
Decisions, decisions. Sometimes I have a hard enough time figuring out the question let alone make a decision.
ReplyDeleteSometimes our emotional health has to come even before financial health. It sounds like maybe that is what you have been doing.....tending to what you know needed tending to?
ReplyDeleteBless you during this tough time. Its hard to feel misunderstood.
I'm sorry that you are getting lots of things piled on your shoulders. I hope that things will resolve soon. They do resolve one way or the other. God's in charge and that's a comfort to me.
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