I haven't had much spare time lately with work taking over my life which makes me happy but then wears me out. I have been pushing myself a little too hard which has resulted in me being a little under the weather.
I decided mid week that I have to take my life back from my new job. I think it is time to sets some limits even if the result is a financial penalty. The problem with being on full commission besides the obvious is you are afraid to let anything or anyone go. Your mind tells you "what if you run out of of customers?"
This hasn't ever happened even during the recession there was a trickle but the mind loves to live in fear. I think for me the worse part is that I really want to help ever customer I speak with but the reality is I can't. There isn't enough time and I am over committed and unfortunately the small jobs can sometimes fall through the cracks. Then I feel really bad.
I am not alone in this my fellow sales people are dealing with the same thing. Some are better at juggling than others and some just work millions of hours. My juggling skills are rusty and I not sure I even want to juggle again and I am already living at work so what do I do?
My body is already alerting me that something is wrong. My weight rising which is resulting in the return of a few health issues from my distant past.
I will take care of myself right after I close the three deals I have on the table. How many times have I said this in my past? The difference is now I can see what I am doing and I can make a choice before too much time goes by. I can choose to be present and take care of myself.
Can I practice what I preach and let go? Can I choose a life of balance not knowing what the result will be and trust that I will be taken care even if I don't know how?
I am starting here first and admitting there is a problem and then I am letting go and we will see what happens.