What a ride this has been for me. I think the last post I thought I was closing my business and getting on with my life. I am getting on with my life but the deal with my partner fell through and now we are in limbo.
I have been too busy working an average of ten hours a day to worry about it. Working in a new place was frightening to begin with, being new, it seemed like sometimes I would never catch on.
My mind told me I was too old to start over working for someone else. I thought a few times "oh my god I have made a real mistake".
I have to admit it was touch and go there for a while but now I am getting into my own rhythm. People are the same everywhere and customers are the same everywhere. My desk is piled high with files and I am loving it.
It is a good company, even though there is a lot of drama, I am trying to lay low and work my own program.
I had only one day off a week since I started ( my choice). This weekend I switched with someone and ended up with three days in a row off. I feel a little guilty but I am starting to feel burnout just beneath the surface. I been running on adrenalin for three months and it time to bring my life back into balance.
My roommate is working out great. She is going to a lot of meetings and she seems happier these days. Her life has been turned upside down and it is a major adjustment. I know all about that. I am hoping my experience strength and hope will make her journey a little easier. Life just happens sometimes.
I have been keeping up with my art and have discovered pastels. This is my meditation in life and it is a priority for me now. Even with all the hours at work I am drawing 3-4 times a week.
It is good to get back here and do a little writing. I have finally set my computer up at home so hopefully I will have a chance to write more often.