I was inspired to take the week off. The timing was as good as it might ever be even if I ended up working an extra day on Sunday to accomplish my escape.
It is a stay cation that is what we call it at work. It seems boring for those that look for the excitement of packing your bags and running around some new place. Eating exotic food and being exhausted for a week and then going back to work to recover. I have done that many times in my life and that isn't what I need right now.
I live in a beautiful place where the weather is nice most of the time so why not stay home.
This week I wanted to just get up and see what the day might bring. On Sunday before heading to work I painted the back door. This was completely spontaneous I was just sitting out there drinking my cup of tea when I thought "I can do that". I had the paint from the front door and an hour later it was done.
Monday I cleaned the porch I had to the door looked so good it made everything look so bad. After that I went through some boxes from the basement and found a bag of parts that came from my grandmothers house I felt inspired to do a pen and marker drawing of the collection.
Yesterday I had an appointment to get blood work done. Just a routine test but apparently it had to be done before 9am which I wasn't prepared to do on my week off so I had to reschedule. After that I met my friend from work and we went to a a hard to get into restaurant by 11am the line was out the door. The food was great and we split dessert.
We then went to a consignment shop where I found a really cool industrial adjustable office chair which I am sitting in right now. It was marked down so cheap I couldn't resist. I can always get a deal on modern items because nobody in this town is interested in this style.
I feel inspired just looking at it. I know if sounds crazy but I love anything that you can tell someone really spent time thinking about the function as well as the design of a piece. Everything you touch every day was designed by someone or it is naturally created. We would have nothing without designers. We would be still sitting on the ground or sitting on stumps ( someone even had to think that up).
I think the week so far has been successful in helping me to be inspired. I have had a few moments of fear where my mind started up about being alone with no one to spend my vacation with but those moments passed and I found something else to do.
I think it is healthy to just create a space to let things bubble up even if your thoughts are full of doubt and fear. I know I need more than just weekend to face those thoughts and get past them to a healthier perspective. If I can trust this process and not run off looking for the next distraction I can find the person I always been beneath the fear. Before life forced me to become a survivor just getting by.
I have been a designer from the moment I discovered that I could change the way I felt by changing my space I was off and running. I am lucky that I had the courage and felt safe enough to abandon my previous career to work in a profession where I have always belonged.
I am glad I took the week of and I think it has helped me to see that I have gotten a lot of things right in my life. Even if I feel alone and sometimes lonely for the most part things are good even if I can't always see that.
Today's happiness inspired by a chair.