Saturday, May 14, 2011

Stuck - Delta Dawn

I woke up this morning singing that old song Delta Dawn...what's that flower you have on could it be a faded rose from days gone by. Where did that come from? Does it mean anything or is it just a short in my brain.

It is a sad song about a woman stuck in the past wishing and waiting for an old love to come back. ... Did I hear you say he was meeting you here today to take you to his mansion in the sky... Is he dead? This could be a long wait.

I have been that woman many times and I can go there pretty quickly when I look too closely at where I am now. Right now I am at work sitting in a pile of endless details. Alone no customers and nothing the least bit interesting to work on.

It is life. It is being an adult and it is what I am not getting paid to do right now. The not getting paid, doesn't help with the motivation factor. Today life seems like an endless series of monotonous tasks. I am a child today wanted to be entertained.

Let's get back to Delta Dawn. The belief that only one person or one thing will make you happy is a tragedy if the possibility of getting that thing is slim to none. It is a self made prison the longing for what was or could have been. Do you really know it would be happily ever after or maybe worse than you could ever imagine.

I knew a Dawn once she was in recovery. When we met she and I had an instant connection. She was a part my life for awhile and then she slipped away without a word. Sometimes life is like that. Those of us in recovery are the healthiest of the sick people. But it doesn't mean there isn't still plenty of work to do.

I still miss her an hope she is happy where ever she is today. I feel better with a little writing under my belt and maybe I can now tackle a few mundane chores.


  1. Good post for me today. Thanks. I had a day where I thought I'd do some mundane things...and ended up ...well...just sort of being reflective and doing almost nothing. I even watched two movies. But, now I feel that I have all my thinkin' done and am pretty well at ease.

  2. I love your line about being an adult and not being paid for it presently. Appreciate this post. Thank you. Blessings.

  3. Thanks for visiting my blog and taking the time to leave a comment. : )

  4. Two things:

    Thanks ALOT - now I'll have that annoying tune in my head all day - :)

    And, if you wish, I'll be the "new Dawn" in your life!!!

  5. I began to feel that level of monotony before I retired. I am glad that I left because I was tired. No sense in hanging onto something that has lost it's flavor.