Tuesday, August 9, 2011

Putting it all out there

The past couple of years I have bared my soul to any and all that would listen. I felt like a open wound walking around wait for the next painful strike. I didn't have a choice to show all my cards all the time. No restraint. Grief is like that.

But now I am past that on move on the facing the real world. How do I maneuver through each day without going back to the way I use to do things. How I would leave just enough space between me and you to keep you from knowing too much about my weak spots. What happens to that space is that something grow there a barrier sometimes it is just glass sometimes a thick hedge and sometimes a thick concrete wall.

I want to feel all the emotions and feel safe at the same time. It doesn't work that way. I can't enjoyed the depth of ocean if I am only willing to put my toe in the water. What if I drown? What if I swim with the dolphins? What if I swim with the dolphins and then I drown.

Is a life worth living if we stay away to stay safe. If we stay in the shallow waters without taking the chance. If we drown will we drown with a smile on our face. If we stay safe will we die with regret on our face.

I am sharing this link on vulnerability that provoked these thoughts.



  1. I believe in living and not holding back. Swim with the dolphins--live each day fully--that's what I do!

  2. Funny (strange) how I can build up the walls without even being aware of them. Stiving for safety, I isolate, all the while, retreating into old behaviour. Even my resentments need to be exposed. Not for others but for me to understand them.

    Great post, thank you for the reminder.

  3. I stumbled upon a Brene Brown's TED talk earlier this year and am currently taking one of her online courses. Love it.