I am streaming the Eagle's nest on my computer two babies have hatched and one to go. Just having the sound on my computer while working and writing has calmed me the past hour.
I can't write today. Anything that comes out will be black. I won't feel like this forever, even though it seems like it, when I am in it.
The animals have small really evolved brains and can be satisfied with being unconscious and just living to reproduce. I envy their minimal thought process not worrying about the future or mistakes of the past or why they exist. The down size is a short life and being some other animal's meal. The first I could live with the second would be a little harder.
This too shall pass. The Promises--That feeling of uselessness and self-pity will disappear. God, please make it disappear.